1 Year w/ My Semi Rigid Erectile Device

It’s been a full year since I got my semi rigid AMS Spectra erectile device. Below you will find the most frequently asked questions and answers surrounding my ED (erectile device) and my experience and feelings about it.

This is what the actual device looks like:

AMS Spectra Semi Rigid
AMS Spectra

When was your stage one surgery?

I underwent my stage one on February 4th, 2016, my surgeons were Dr Crane and Dr Safa. This surgery consisted of the following procedures: phalloplasty, urethroplasty, scrotoplasty, v-nectomy (colpocleisis). Delayed glansplasty 15 days later w/ Dr Chen.


When was your stage two surgery:

I underwent my stage two on October 11th, 2016, my surgeon was Dr Chen. This surgery consisted of the following procedures:


How long do you have to wait after stage one before you can get an erectile device?

Typically 9-12 months.


How long do you have to wait before you are cleared for sex?

8-12 weeks

Do you have 1 rod or 2?

I have 1 rod. Almost all RFF’s (and even some ALT’s) are only wide enough to accommodate 1 rod. Keep in mind that there is a urethra (if you have UL) as well as ingoing and outgoing blood flow to the penis that can’t be compromised. Forcing a second rod in when you don’t have the space could compress blood flow or restrict urine output. Your surgeon should be able to tell you if you can fit 1 or 2. If they are unsure in the office when examining you, they will certainly know during surgery once they dilate a tract in the penis where the implant is to be housed.


How is the ED attached?

I will just speak for how it was mounted in my body through the techniques used by my surgeon, Dr Chen. At the time of my surgery the semi rigid was wrapped in a dacron sheath (looks and feels like a chinese finger trap) and mounted to the pubic bone using 4 industrial sutures. Eventually the bone binds itself to the ED and the sutures are not what is keeping it secured to the body. But initially (first 8 weeks) you have to be very gentle so as not to detach these sutures. This is what the dacron sheath looks like:

dacron graft
Dacron Sheath


Do you look like you have a boner all the time?

No. Seriously, not at all. Not even a little bit. Unless of course I want to, in which case, YES, and it’s awesome!.. I actually chose the rod because I wanted to enhance my size. I never thought I would want the rod. I was always planning for the pump even if it meant it needed to be replaced multiple times over the course of my life – I was fine with that. But as you move through these surgery stages, when this process is actually up close to you and not just a dream any longer, you have a more intimate idea about the things that are important to you and sometimes they can shift from what you initially believed you wanted or needed based on what your outcome is. I’m a very thin guy and my penis size felt a bit underwhelming to me. I chose the semi rigid because I wanted to enhance and utilize all of my size all the time, rather than just when erect. It’s hard to explain unless you experience it yourself, but the rod is actually quite versatile. Yes, it occasionally needs an adjustment,  but all men adjust themselves here and there – that just comes with the territory. And frankly, I like that I need to adjust sometimes because it affirms my manhood and makes me feel proud.


Does your penis still flop around and swing?

Yes, Yes, Yes! It moves quite freely. Not exactly like it did pre-implant, but it does very much still swing when I walk. And when I jiggle my hips it absolutely flops side to side. I totally get how this seems impossible for it both to jiggle & swing, and also be firm enough for sex, but it just is!


Can you point it upward and have it stay that way?

Pretty much, yes. What I do is bend it a bit past where I want it to be and then it will lower slightly and stay. This is mostly applicable when I am standing. So I will bend it up towards my stomach and then when I let go it stays at about a right angle. When I’m lying down it’s quite easy to make it stand erect because it’s not as affected by gravity.


Can you lay on your stomach?

I can. I waited at least 2 months before I started doing this though. As a side/belly sleeper, I can atest to this being challenging during the healing process, but it was challenging during stage 1 as well. There are a lot of trying hurdles throughout this process, but ultimately I knew they were all very much worth it to me. After I was fully healed I was able to lay on my belly again. In terms of hard floors, I can lay on my stomach, but I usually prefer not to. If I till my pelvis a bit I can take any pressure off the rod, but there is definitely a different feeling now since the angle of the rod does protrude a bit from the body, at least in how it relates to my anatomy. Again, I’m very lean, so this would likely be a different scenario with guys with some more fat on their bodies.


Do you feel limited in physical exercise or sports?

The only thing I’ve chosen to limit myself in is yoga. I used to do a ton of Bikram yoga. I have a chronic cervical issue that was getting triggered by my yoga practice anyhow, so I can’t say that I would still be practicing even if I didn’t have the semi rigid. My main reason for opting out of this activity is that there are many poses that have you laying on your belly on a hard floor with minimal padding. Sometimes lifting upper and lower body off the floor and balancing on the abdomen and pelvis. These are postures I prefer not to do, even though I am able. I just choose not to risk it. In general, I’m a pretty active guy. I run, hike, climb, swim, go to the gym, and I’ve even gone horseback riding – all with zero issues. So I wouldn’t let your level of activity be a deciding factor with your ED.


If you sustained a blow to the groin could this cause the ED to break away from the pubic bone?

Is this something that could happen – yes. Is this something that I think is likely – no. Is this something I spend much time thinking about or obsessing over – nope. Again, I think there are inherent risks and sacrifices that come with this process. You have to ask yourself what is most important to you and what you’re willing to lay on the line. If you do martial arts and you don’t wear a protective cup, or you do direct care in a behavioral health field with clients that are frequently physically assaultive, well, then you might want to consider a different kind of ED. Is detachment of the device a risk? Yes… Is it also possible with an inflatable? Yes… Is it more likely with semi rigid? Yes… Both the inflatable and the semi rigid have their pros and cons. You have to weigh these risks and benefits to determine which is right for you.


Does your ED make noises or click when you move it?

It did when I first got it. It was stiffer in the beginning before it had gotten much movement back and forth and all around. Now I rarely ever hear it make any noise, but once in a great while I do. In the beginning when moving it I could feel more of the individual joints. After a few months though of moving it all the time and loosening it up this almost completely went away. Now when I bend it, it feels more like Gumby dick than a K’Nex rod. Fuck yes!

Gumby Dick


How has sex been?

I’m still hanging onto my “V” card as of now. I’m single and finding the right partner to share this experience with, for me, feels really important. I’ve of course used it solo and it works great for jerking off with my hand or with a masturbation sleeve (similar to a fleshlight). I’ve had no issues at all with it being firm enough.


Are you happy with your implant?

I’m content. What I have right now was the closest semblance to what I’m looking for longterm and I see it as a placeholder till my ideal implant becomes available. Waiting till a better implant option came on the market was absolutely not something I was willing to do. It would have been an excuse for me to delay resuming sexual relationships because I wouldn’t have felt confident. I felt impotent before I got my IPP (internal penile prosthesis).  External devices just aren’t for me. Ultimately, I would like to design a different type of implant – but it would absolutely still be a semi rigid. The AMS Spectra is quite hard, even with the dacron sheath over it. My dream implant would be a semi rigid that has more of a dense spongy feel to it, similar to true engorged erectile tissues – almost the exact same texture of the Carvings testicular implants. I’m not at all interested in a pump. The pump is a great option for some folks, but I want a device that fills out/utilizes the entire capacity of my penis, 100% of the time. I like that having a semi rigid means that I can have two testicular implants rather than one ball and the bulb of the pump on the other side with the inflatable. I like that the lifespan of a semi rigid far outlasts pumps and could potentially never need replacement. It feels more “set it and forget it” to me. I also like that the infection risk with the semi rigid is less than the pump. I should add that the lifespan and the infection risks are not what made me choose my device, I just see them as added benefits. If the tables were turned and the semi rigid had a shorter lifespan and higher infection rate I still would have chosen it because it meets my highest priority – which is a very specific kind of experience that I want to have with my penis. If you are having difficulty deciding between the pump or the semi rigid, my advice would be to find your absolute highest priorities and then look at which device comes closest to achieving those for you. When I asked Dr Chen: “which device is better?” he said: “It’s not really that one is better than the other. A better question is: which one makes you more excited to think about?”


Pump vs. Rod – How I Decided

To Pump, Or Not To Pump?… THAT, is the question!…

I’ve been getting this question A LOT, so I just decided to type it once here and just link folk to this posting because it’s not necessarily a one sentence answer. There are quite a few factors that went into my decision making process. And understandably so!

I never thought I would get the semi rigid when I first started my personal research into this process in 2005. Yes, 2005. Actually it wasn’t until only about 4 months ago that I experienced 180° turn in terms of my implant desires. Up until then I didn’t really fully relate to or understand how anyone would think it was the ideal choice to go with the rod if they had the option of choosing the pump. Logically I understood the idea of not wanting to have to replace it every so often with future surgery, but the idea of future surgery seemed well worth it to have a “naturally” soft penis when I wasn’t having sex or aroused. However, I’ve always had a really strong desire to have two symmetrical testicles which, with the pump is not an option. I know some people have questioned whether two testicular implants as well as the pump bulb might all fit into the scrotum. It’s worth noting however, that the UK found that one of the leading causes of pump failure was the scrotum being too tight around the pump bulb – and that’s with only one testicular implant! I also was not all that satisfied with the level of fullness that my penis had when in it’s natural flaccid state which the pump would allow it to be in the vast amount of the time when I wasn’t erect. I’m a very lean guy with thin arms which equates to not much fat in my penis. After trying a fat grafting procedure in June 2016, 4 months post stage 1 and the fat being completely absorbed by my body within a month’s time, I felt like the rod was just going to meet more of my needs. I LOVED how fat/full/thick my penis was right after the fat grafting and that experience made me realize that I would be a whole lot happier with my penis if it always had that level of fullness.

The main reason I went with the rod was because I wanted to have a larger appearing package all the time, first and foremost. And not only just in terms of appearance, but what I would touch and interact with when I reached into my pants. I’ve never been a size queen, but always when imagining my body after finishing all stages of phallo, I absolutely did picture myself having at least a mildly visible bulge in my pants, and I really didn’t have that once the initial stage-one post-op swelling went down. Maybe that would have changed a bit with the introduction of testicular implants but I also wanted the shaft to not only be more visible but thicker and dense. I just all around wanted more to hang on to.

Now that I have the semi rigid rod and balls I am wildly happy with the profile of my package. No, it’s not as floppy as a flaccid penis, and that has certainly been an adjustment. But I was willing to give up a flaccid, floppy penis if it meant that I would have a larger feeling, more noticeable package. I also was not a fan of the way my flaccid penis felt when it fell down completely between my thighs and just seemed to get lost. Sometimes even when wearing thin/light shorts with the way it fell it just didn’t look like there was much of anything there, even to me, and that was a really dysphoria inducing experience. I can’t say that I’ll never get the pump or that I’ll have this specific implant forever, because I don’t think that I will. In the future I would like to have some version of the pump or, even better, an altogether better/new model that is designed specifically for the anatomy of a neo phallus. It’s just that none of the erectile options right now feel like they could completely 100% meet my needs, and for the interim I knew I needed something to hold me over till there was a more suitable option available for us – which will be who knows when.

I thought I would list out my personally experienced pros and cons to the semi rigid rod. Please keep in mind that 1.) these are my opinions – and 2.) I am still in early recovery from having this device implanted (less than 3 weeks post-op). So these pros and cons could still very well shift as swelling and pain decreases and mobility and healing progresses.


my PROs:

  • Fuller, more girthy penis 100% of the time to interact with
  • Much more pronounced and visible”profile”
  • Less likely to have complications, infections, and mechanical breakdown than any of the inflatable options, giving it a potentially much longer lifespan
  • Allows for two symmetrical testicular implants

my CONs:

  • At least initial (temporary) audible clicking noise and palpable clicking sensation when changing position of penis
  • At least initially not able to sleep on belly while healing
  • Potentially might be unable to comfortably lay face down on hard or firm surfaces
  • Detaching device at pubic bone connection point is a risk (i.e. sports, falling wrong, a kick in the groin etc.)
  • Never being able to experience a flaccid penile state for as long as I have the device
  • Not being able to experience the full range of the erectile process


So there’s clearly more cons than pros, however the numbers in one category versus the other wasn’t what allowed me to make my decision. Not to mention that 2 months into healing the scales might tip in the opposite direction with hopefully making the first 3 cons non-issues. In the end it comes down to what your priorities are. What really REALLY matters most to you when it comes to a device, to your everyday state of being, to complication rates, mobility, comfortability, self confidence, etc. When I had this discussion with Dr Chen in August during my phone consult I asked a ton of questions to find out if one device was really better or safer for the penis in the long run. His reply was that wasn’t really a factor in coming to a decision about an erectile device. He said what it’s really more about is which one you feel more excited about. And truly that’s a damn good way of looking at it. This is your dick, and this is your dick with an erection. Which one feels more exciting??? Maybe that’s a really obvious question, but it worked for me. I was more hesitant about the outcome with the inflatable cylinders than I was about a semi rigid rod.

As I said before, this decision is right for me right now, and that could absolutely change down the road. One of the best things that a close friend reminded me of years ago when I was in the midst of making big decisions (that felt permanent at the time but weren’t) was that you just have to make the best decision that feels right for you NOW. And if at some point down the road things don’t feel right, you make another decision. There’s not too much in life (or anywhere for that matter) that’s truly permanent, and thankfully an erectile device isn’t one of them.

I hope this explanation of how I made my decision was helpful to you. If you haven’t read it already and are looking for more more details about what the rod is like, please first take a look at the exhaustively long:

2 Weeks Post-Op Stage 2 (Semi-Rigid Rod & Testicular Implants)

It goes into detail about everything I ever wondered about the semi rigid and testicular implants, and more… And trust me, I wondered a lot… It felt important for me that I make that available to others… So if you have questions, please read that before asking.


2 Weeks Post-Op Stage 2 (Semi-Rigid Rod & Testicular Implants)

My stage 2 surgery was on October 11th, 2016 with Dr Chen at the Greenbrae Surgery Center in San Francisco. The surgery itself went fine and there were no major issues.

TESTICULAR IMPLANTS: The right side of my scrotum ended up being a tad bit smaller than my left side and so Dr Chen had to shave down silicone-carvings-1 that testicular implant so that it would fit into the sack. Had he not done this it’s likely I would have had issues with erosion if he tried to force the full-sized medium implant in. The nice thing about the Silicone Carving implants that Crane/Chen use is that they allow the surgeon to modify and shave it down to the exact size of the tissue that they are working with. That way you aren’t limited to just small, medium, or large which is the case with any of the gel or saline filled implants – rather, you can get the perfect sized ones for your body with the carvings if the space you can accommodate falls somewhere between the factory issued sm/md/lg. The other thing worth mentioning that Dr Chen noticed while placing the right implant was that the skin was fairly “thin” meaning I could be at a higher risk for erosion on this side which was a contributing factor in his decision to shave the implant down a bit to take some of the tension off the already thin skin and smaller space. I appreciate his conservative approach and efforts to not make a risky decision even though I expressed how much I really wanted the largest implants possible and to have two symmetrical testicles. These factors weighed heavily into my decision making process when choosing an erectile implant type, but I far and away prefer having slightly uneven testicles than risking erosion and ending up with only one testicle, or even none! Ultimately though, my hope is that over time the tissue will stretch with the weight of the implant, gravity,  and by manually stretching it myself. Down the road, be that many months or years from now I think it’s reasonable to assume I’d be able to fit a full-sized medium implant in the right side as a small revision add-on while I’m having an erectile implant replacement/switch.

ERECTILE DEVICE – SEMI RIGID/MALLEABLE ROD: The model of erectile device that I had placed is called the AMS Spectra, one rod, not two. Prior to1-ams-spectra_300 surgery we had discussed doubling up on the Gortex sheath that he wraps the rod in, in order to further aid in bulking up the penis. Upon getting inside though it became clear that I didn’t have enough space to accommodate a second layer of the wrapping. So my surgery was similar to the technique he has always used when placing the rod. He also told me that he was really happy with the positioning that he was able to get and the angle at which the rod was mounted.
Everyone’s pelvic bones are angled just a bit differently, so they don’t know exactly how things will end up being mounted until they get inside and look. He said that in the OR he was able to fully bring my penis straight up against my stomach and that I had a great range of motion. However, since I woke up from surgery I have not been able to bring my penis up higher than a right angle from my body. I can make it stick straight out but I can’t

Image on right is similar to the Gortex (Dacron) used to wrap the rod

can’t bring it fully up against my belly. In the O.R. there is no swelling so it could just be that all the edema is what’s preventing me from getting the same full range of motion. However, I’m also noticing a strong tugging/tension on the underside scar (from stage one) that the runs the length from tip to base on the penis. The lower portion of the scar when I try to bring my penis upwards feels like the point of tension that is making me feel like I shouldn’t raise my penis any further. It’s also worth noting that this portion of the scar is hypertrophic (thick and raised, but clear/white in color) so it’s my intuition that this scar is what’s causing the issue and that the reason he was able to bring my penis all the way up in the OR, was because my pain from over-stretching that scar didn’t stop him while I was under anesthesia. However, Dr Chen said upon physically assessing things at my post-op appointment, that he believed it was the swelling at the pubic mound where the incision to insert the prosthesis was made (photos below) that is likely causing the current lack of mobility/tension. He told me to continue to gently but firmly test my limits for how high I am able to angle it and that he thought I should see improvement as the swelling subsides. I’m trying to stay positive while also being realistic. I truly believe it’s the underside scar that’s holding it down and I’m not sure if or how this problem can ultimately be remedied if that is the case. I don’t think it’s an issue that would inhibit sex, but it could potentially limit sexual positions and definitely already does limit positioning options in my underwear since wearing it down is the only angle it is comfortable in, pointing up is not an option. Time will tell if this ends up improving or presenting as a problem that needs correcting. One option I am beginning to mull over is potentially getting Kenalog injections along the scar which might help flatten it, but I’m not sure that it would impact it’s flexibility/stretchability at all, which I believe to be the true issue. Pre-implants I had been sleeping with my penis in an upright position to stretch/flatten this scar because I had noticed that it was thicker and almost seemed to bunch a bit from wearing my penis down all day since it’s right in the underside crease. I will continue to update about this issue as I gather more information about corrective options or as things hopefully positively progress on their own!

ERECTILE IMPLANT INCISION: I’ll be curious to see how the pubic scar on my mons from erectile-implant-incisionthe erectile implant heals as it’s about 1.5 inches below the SP scar, about 1.5 inches long and located less than one inch above the connection point/scar of where my penis is attached to my mons. I’ve had quite a bit of swelling at this site over the last two weeks. If I’m up and being more mobile (ie: cooking, driving, walking) I notice that the swelling here increases. I’ve been addressing this by icing 20 min on, 20 min off and that has helped to decrease the swelling.

SUPRA PUBIC CATHETER SCAR REVISION: This was a super minor revision and unrelated to the erectile or testicular implants. At stage one in February I chose to keep my SP catheter in for an additional 2 weeks because I had a bit of a urine leak coming from my scrotum. I chose to do this to allow further healing of the UL without the added pressure of urine constantly flowing through the healing fistula every time I peed. In doing so, I added to the amount of scar tissue that builds up around the SP tube from belly to bladder, since the longer you leave an SP in, the more scar tissue that grows around it. What formed was a thick stalk of scar tissue inside my body that ended up healing with some adhesion so that the skin at the point of the external scar does not float and move normally over the structures below it – it remains stuck . I’ve tried manually breaking up this scar tissue with massage,  but the stalk of scar tissue under the skin is far too thick. So I asked Dr Chen to break the adhesion since he was going to be “in the area”. sp-scar-revisionThe first 1 or 2 days post-op I noticed that the skin was free-floating and mobile. But after a few days had passed I tried to move the skin and it had adhered to the stalk of scar tissue below it again. I had a conversation with Dr Chen prior to surgery about the SP adhesion and I asked whether or not he would be removing the “stalk” of scar tissue as well, to which he said: no, he wasn’t going to chase the stalk because that increased the risk of damaging surrounding structures, and he wanted to be as minimally invasive as possible. We discussed this re-adhesion at my post-op appointment and he was disappointed to find out it had re-adhered. He said it was good information to know though, so that if he ever did this procedure for someone in the future he would advise them to constantly be massaging the scar early on post-op to discourage any re-adhesion of the tissues. I will probably have this adhesion broken again at some point in the future but I would only do so if combining it with other procedures. Again, it’s not a big enough issue that it causes pain or distress. I would just prefer the skin float rather than stick as it does make the scar a bit more noticeable. But still, really minor issue and not something that would equate to even being a minor complication, rather just a common factor in healing from any surgery that produces a scar -adhesion is always a possibility.

PERINEAL DIVOT REVISION: My body took a long time to heal from the revision I had back in June to remove some granulation tissue that had formed at the point of vaginectomy closure at stage one. I had a fistula (not urinary related, just a hole or opening) that had a lot of difficulty healing. When I had the revision in June it opened back up and again had trouble healing. When I finally used an antiseptic powder on this site, it miraculously closed. However, it was open for so long that it did leave me with a small divot once it finally healed. This time around this area has healed well and when he did the revision there was no granulation tissue at the site which is great! I haven’t gotten too up close and personal in that area because I’m still pretty limited in how mobile/flexible I can be. Squatting is quite painful and I try no to do anything that increases pain, as those were a big part of my post-op instructions. If it hurts, STOP – or DON’T DO IT! I have used the Columbia Antiseptic Powder a few times just to make sure that area is healing over well, but I haven’t felt or noticed any issues with it. However, it does feel like there is minor tactile difference/dip between the perineal raphe and where it connects to this revised area which is about an inch from the anus. It’s subtle but it’s there. So I’m not quite sure yet if the revision actually improved the divot or not. I thought I would include a diagram of the male perineal area which labels all the different structures as a reference point. I thought folks might find comfort in knowing that many natal males have a visible raphe/ridge that runs from the underside tip of their penis to the anus. Their bodies closed this gap in utero, whereas transmen who have phallo and opt-in for a vaginectomy and achieve this closure via an incision line really aren’t all that different from the natal male anatomy in this sense.

This is not a picture of my anatomy, this is an example of a natal male.


PEEING W/ THE ROD: Initially it was a bit harder to urinate the a couple of days following surgeryholding-a as I’m sure I had a good deal more swelling than I do now. I was also in SOOO much pain when I stood up that once I got to the bathroom I needed to sit down to relieve pain before I was able to relax enough to pee. Sitting to pee is more difficult for me and I think it’s something about the changed angle of the neourethra with the natal urethra ever since stage one that has made it a bit harder to pee in that position. I’ve noticed it takes longer to empty my bladder and my stream is weaker when my body is bent at that angle. The differences I’ve noticed with urinating since the rod has gone in is that I prefer to hold my penis differently now. I instead of holding it in the “A” position (pre-implants) I now hold it in the “B” position. The reason for this, is the rod is now filling up my penis as much as is safely possible without minimizing the needed space for the urethra to expand and fill with urine. If I hold it like photo “A” gravity is angling the rod down and adding pressure holding-bagainst the urethra where my hand wraps around the underside and creates further pressure. I can still pee that way if I really wanted to but I can feel the urethra being somewhat compressed and it’s just more comfortable to give it the full amount of space by holding the sides or top half of my penis so that the underside, where the urethra runs is unobstructed. I meant to mention this earlier, but if the last sentence didn’t explain it and you’re still wondering, the rod is placed on the topside of the urethra… This dick-handling adjustment hasn’t been all that big of a deal. Grip “B” is not quite as instinctual or natural as “A”, but it’s a small price to pay for being the proud owner of a hard dick. Also, if I really wanted, I can easily pee without holding my penis at all since the rod really keeps it at whatever angle I put it in. But it just feels more natural to hold him while I’m peeing. And since I’m not really holding him UP exactly when I’m peeing, I’m really kind of just mostly using my thumb to guide him in the direction I’m aiming, if that makes sense.

BENDING THE ROD/STIFFNESS: The rod is actually a fair amount stiffer than I had anticipated. I messed around with the model that was in the office, but I’m sure that one has seen plenty of handling and was likely much looser for that reason. I do think that even in the 2 weeks since I’ve had it, it’s already started to loosen a bit and I’m quite happy about that. There was a palpable clicking sensation when pointing my penis in different angles. I could also hear a very soft clicking noise as the “joints” flexed into different positions, and I can’t say I found that aspect all that sexy. It made me wonder what that sensation might feel for my partner when I was inside them. I’ll have to get back to you on that one as it continues to loosen up. The good news is that I’ve talked with some guys that have had the rod in for months or even years longer than me and they reported that is did indeed go away! Otherwise the rod is easily bent and positioned with one hand. I can move it up to a right angle and even a bit higher. If I am laying down and I point it to a right angle my penis will stay pretty much at whatever angle I put it in. If I am standing it will want to lower a bit, but generally will stay close to the angle that I put it in when I take my hand away.

(GIRTH) SIZE INCREASE: At this point and there is likely still a bit of swelling along the shaft but not much, but I’ve gained close to 3/4 of an inch in girth. This might not seem like a whole lot, but slight increases in girth are much more drastic than slight increases in length, in my opinion anyway. I feel much more comfortable with my girth now. Ideally I would have landed squarely on the 5 inch mark for a nice beefy thickness, but the 4.5ish range feels like a reasonable size to me as well. I can comfortably live with that and feel satisfied.

GUESSTIMATIONS ON EASE OF PENETRATION: I honestly can’t speak from experience about this for obvious reasons. Being only 2 weeks out I’m nowhere near being able to use my guy for play yet. However, I will say that going into this, I anticipated having far less rigidity than I do. Obviously I was getting an erectile implant for the purposes of topping. But a VERY close second on that list was choosing an option that enhanced my current package and really beefed things up. From obsessively reading phallo listservs over the past decade, participating in groups, and talking with numerous guys who have had different models of the rod, I’ve heard more than a couple guys say they wished their erections were firmer and heard some guys have issues with buckling, or the tip of the head drooping over the end of the rod which was possibly placed very conservatively far back behind the glans, etc. But I must say, I’m impressed. My rod goes all the way to within one cm from the tip of my penis, so I don’t anticipate any issues with the head not being firm enough and causing issues with initial penetration. There is zero droop at the tip of my penis. The rod itself bends easily, yet gentle exploration thus far seems to look like it will be plenty firm enough for sex, both vaginal and anal. Again, I’ll have to give factual, experienced-based updates on this at a later time… for the good of science of course!

SENSATION/ORGASM: This is a big one and I almost left it out. Since the rod was placed I completely lost all sensation in my penis. ALL of it. I had the most sensation at the tip which was incredibly sensitive and a few large spots around the shaft where sensation was coming in. Dr Chen assured me that it really should come back and that it’s fairly common but that it could take a few months up to a year to come back and that it’s likely that the nerves are just in shock. I’ll be totally honest and admit that I’m pretty scared. This fear provoked me into making sure I still retained the ability to orgasm even in spite of not having any shaft sensation. I’m happy to report that all is ok. Although I don’t recommend it, since you’re risking detaching the erectile device, we do what we have to do to manage and get through these really difficult surgeries where there are of course no guarantees and a level of uncertainty even though most guys will make out ok in the big picture. I personally don’t know any men that are not able to orgasm. I know guys that don’t have much or any shaft sensation but orgasm is still possible. I won’t get too much into the mechanics of all that and exactly how it’s possible, but I’ll say that the base where my penis was fixed to my pubic mound, is HIGHLY sensate and erogenous. Actually quite a bit more so now with the introduction of the testicular implants and i believe also the placement of the rod had something to do with it. I can actually “reach” (stimulate) my original smaller buried penis easier than I could pre-implants. Hopefully the nerves are just stunned though and they’ll wake up soon. I’ve spoken with some other rod-guys and they had a similar experience. So chances are everything is fine. I also noticed post fat grafting that my sensation decreased a fair amount for a while. It makes sense if you think about it because they are jamming things down into the penis where the nerves are growing for both the fat grafting and for any erectile device, rod or inflatable.

THE BATTLE OF THE BULGE!: Ok, so I’m pretty IMPRESSED! Again, there is certainly some getting used to this aspect of having a firm penis 100% of the time and never being flaccid. BUT, I must say, I really am enjoying it so far! I feel like it’s definitely had the impact on my self confidence that I had anticipated would result immediately following stage one. Had my forearm contained a more dense layer of subcutaneous fat, I think it’s likely that would have been my experience immediately following stage one. But this stage feels really fulfilling for me because it’s finally “scratched that itch” that I’ve been desperately waiting for since stage one and just never felt like I landed on. I experienced some pretty heavy depression in February after my first surgery, I believe in large part because this basic need I had just didn’t feel met. But now I really enjoy how effortlessly I fill out my underwear and I love reaching down and feeling my full package. I can’t speak from the experience of having had the pump (since I haven’t) and being able to compare this to that. But I do believe this experience is a better fit for me, at least at this point in my life given the current erectile device options that are on the market as well as current options for insanely expensive, “permanent” (lasting up to 2 yrs) fillers to add fullness and bulk to the penis. The pump is absolutely amazing in that it allows for the more natural experience of a flaccid AND and erect penis and all the stages in between of becoming erect and filling up. I do hope I get to be able to experience that some day as well. Clearly that’s the more “natural” option for many, if not most guys that are seeking an erectile device. But with my circumstances, I really do like that even though I’ve ended up with a more modest sized penis both in length and in girth, that I appear to be a show-er now, even if there’s no growing that will be happening later on, no passersby actually know that. That’s been really exciting for me – a definite confidence booster. Here are some quick photos I snapped just to show what my guy looks like in undies. The bulge is definitely MORE noticeable with just underwear – and much LESS dramatic/obvious with shorts or sweats on over the top. Also, keep in mind that I do have some swelling still going on (mostly scrotal)… Once I get back home and have more clothing options to play with I’ll probably snap some better photos in a few different kinds of underwear and types of pants, shorts, sweats etc. and model those for you.


SLEEPING: It’s still very EARLY DAYS and so I’m sleeping on my back to not cause any pressure on the pubic connection point. This is pretty miserable because I’m predominantly a belly sleeper, and an occasional but much less frequent side-sleeper. I’ve done a bit of side-napping using two very fluffy pillows propping my legs apart and then propping my penis up a bit so it’s not dangling at a drastic sideways angle. But I’m really paranoid that I’m going to fall asleep and then try to roll the rest of the way over onto my belly. It’s hard to know for sure yet, but I think I should be able to comfortably and safely belly sleep in another 4-6 weeks. I am doubtful that I’ll be able to do as many belly facing yoga poses as I was able to in the past though. I can indeed see this device potentially limiting me in that sense when it comes to lying on hard or even firm flat surfaces. Being a really lean guy means that I don’t have that extra belly or thigh fat to buffer the rod that’s sticking out when lying on my stomach. Hopefully I’m wrong about this though. If it ends up restricting my mobility enough it could be the deciding factor in eventually switching to an inflatable.

THE SHWING!!!: Alright, so I am noticing a bit more movement and jiggling while I walk as the days progress. I’m sure the decreased swelling and the loosening of the joints in the rod are probably equally responsible for that. Things of course don’t flop around nearly as much as they did pre-stage two, and it’s undoubtedly a big adjustment. I enjoyed my floppy dick, but not all the time, and not all that much. I didn’t like how it fell between my legs when I was sitting or driving – I felt like it got lost down there. Of course, the lack of testicles I’m sure played a large part in that too. But overall, I wasn’t all that happy with the size of my package. I had always imagined myself having a lot more going on, even though I’m really not a size queen. Anyway, things seem like they’re loosening up a bit. I notice that it is more likely to swing left to right a bit than it is to go in any other direction when I’m walking. There isn’t much downward motion/bounce since the shaft sits firmly against my scrotum and I kind of curve him around my nuts. I wouldn’t mind a bit more of a SHWING when I walk, but I may get that over time as swelling continues to go down, and the device continues to loosen up a bit with some *ahem*, “use”.

WRAP IT UP: I think that mostly covers things for now. My next post: which is already in draft, will be an explanation of Pump vs. Rod – How I Decided. I’ve been getting that question at least daily and I figured it’d be easier to have a post to direct people too with the long-winded reasons rather than typing the cliff-notes version over and over… As always, if you have any questions please feel free to ask or make requests for specific topics to be covered. I will update on all of these topics again at the 1 month mark. I can’t promise that it will be posted exactly one month post-op to the day, but I am still aiming to get all the correct content in for the listed timelines even if they are days or weeks late to go live. Thanks for reading!

My Phalloplasty Timeline

I thought it would be helpful to see all the things that took place leading up to surgery and between surgery stages. The ABRIDGED list is nice to see in terms of when actual surgery dates were and which procedures were done and by whom. But this process is far more involved than that list would have you believe. I have purposely left out insurance back and forths in this UNABRIDGED list because it would have made it even more obnoxiously long than it already is. However, it’s worth mentioning that I started this timeline when I began my hair removal process because I wanted to track just how long and how many hours it took. I quickly realized while fighting to get my hair removal covered (which oddly enough was already listed as a covered benefit) that keeping notes of who you speak with about what, and on which day when it comes to anything insurance related was really helpful.

           I will continue adding to this list since I am still in the process of finishing up the last little bit of electrolysis, as well as laser tattoo removal, and I will be doing medical tattooing (veins & shading) on my penis hopefully in the beginning half of next year. 

Abridged Phalloplasty Timeline:

March 15th, 2012 – Laparoscopic Assisted Vaginal Hysterectomy – Bilateral Salpingo Oophorectomy (((LAVH-BSO))) w/ Dr Yvonne Gomez-Carrion @ Beth Israel Hospital, MA

January 6th, 2015  Phalloplasty Consultation with Dr Curtis Crane in San Francisco

February 4th, 2016  RFF Phalloplasty, urethral lengthening, vaginectomy, & scrotoplasty @ California Pacific Medical Center w/ Dr Curtis Crane, Dr Safa & Bunke Team

February 19th, 2016 Delayed Glansplasty (due to previous scar on wrist) w/ Dr Chen @ Greenbrae Surgery Center, CA

June 20th, 2016  Revision and Fat Grafting w/ Dr Chen @ Greenbrae Surgery Center, CA

October 11th, 2016  Stage 2 (Semi-Rigid Rod, & Testicular Implants) w/ Dr Chen @ Greenbrae Surgery Center, CA


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Unabridged Phalloplasty Timeline:


03/15/12 – Laparoscopic Assisted Vaginal Hysterectomy – Bilateral Salpingo Oophorectomy (((LAVH-BSO))) w/ Dr Yvonne Gomez-Carrion @ Beth Israel Hospital, MA

09/26/14 – Sent an email to the offices of Brownstein & Crane seeking info on Phalloplasty

10/01/14 – Received information about phalloplasty via email

10/01/14 – Requested to schedule an in person consultation with Dr Crane

10/14/14 – Scheduled consult w/ Crane in SF for January 6th, 2015

01/06/15 Consultation with Curtis Crane in SF

02/10/15 1st laser hair removal session on forearm ($125)

03/06/15 Attended New York presentation through CK Life featuring a presentation and informal consults with Dr Loren Schechter

03/19/15 – Called office and confirmed I’m #9 on the waitlist to be scheduled for surgery

04/07/15 2nd laser hair removal on forearm ($125)

04/16/15 PROMOTED! New position, full-time, & trans inclusive healthcare benefits

05/20/15 Set date for surgery 01/28/2016

05/22/15 Surgery rescheduled for 2/11/16 because of Crane being out of town the first week in February.

05/26/15 3rd laser hair removal on forearm ($125)

06/04/15 Office confirmed receipt of letter with 2 signatures, and hormone letter. ALL CRITERIA MET for insurance company!

6/13/15 1st electrolysis session on forearm (45 min @ $65)

07/14/15 4th laser hair removal on forearm ($125)

9/9/15 2nd electrolysis session on forearm (45 min @ $60)

09/16/15 3rd electrolysis session on forearm (1 hour @ $70)

09/19/16 Dr Crane called to inform me that Arise medical center in Texas cancelled all his cases and is refusing to let him perform surgery there. Surgery has now been rebooked for February 4th, 2016 in San Francisco at California Pacific Medical Center (CPMC).

09/21/15 4th electrolysis session on forearm (30 min @ $60)

09/30/15 5th electrolysis session on forearm (1 hour @$70)

10/05/15 – 6th electrolysis session on forearm (1 hour @$70)

10/14/15 – 7th electrolysis session on forearm (1 hour @$70)

10/19/15 – 8th electrolysis session on forearm (1 hour @$70)

10/26/15 – 9th electrolysis session on forearm (1 hour @ $60)

11/04/15 – 10th electrolysis session on forearm (2hrs @ $140)

11/11/15 – 11th electrolysis session on forearm (1 hour @$70)

12/12/15 – 12th electrolysis session on forearm (1 hour @$70)

12/21/15 – 13th electrolysis session on forearm (45 min @$65)

12/22/15 – 5th laser hair removal on forearm ($125)

01/05/15 – Pre-Op Bloodwork

01/18/16 – 14th electrolysis session on forearm (1 hour @ $75)

01/25/16 – Pre-Registration for surgery – 40 min phone call

02/02/16 – Pre-Op w/ Dr Crane and nurse at Greenbrae Surgery Center

02/04/16 – SURGERY DAY! RFF phalloplasty w/ urethral lengthening, vaginectomy, & scrotoplasty

02/9/16 – Discharged from hospital! Doplar wire, foley catheter, scrotal JP drain, and wound vac removed.

02/17/16 – 1st Post-Op Appointment

02/19/16 – Glansplasty w/ Dr Chen (this was a delayed procedure done separately from stage one because of a scar from a previous surgery) @ Greenbrae Surgery Center.

02/23/16 – Peed for the first time! Small urine leak coming from scrotum. Decided to continue using SP for voiding a bit longer rather than my penis to allow for more healing time.

02/24/16 – 2nd Post-Op Appointment

03/06/16 – Urine leak closed up on it’s own

03/07/16 – PCP removed SP Catheter

03/09/16 – First orgasm post-op

03/24/16 – Appointment w/ Dr Roger Lefevre (trans-friendly), a urogynecologist in Boston regarding opening along perineum where the vaginectomy was performed. He gave me gauze and instructed me on how to pack the wound in order to aid with faster healing.

04/04/16 – Returned to work (1 month sooner than expected)

04/28 – 1st electrolysis session on penis (1 hour @ $100)

05/19/16 – 2nd electrolysis session on penis (20 min @ $45)

06/20/16 – Fat Grafting & Revision Surgery – sebaceous pockets on scrotum removed, opening on perineum closed, urethral cystoscopy to check for stricture (no stricture, but found a small ridge at connection points which is fairly common), & fat grafting w/ Dr. Mang Chen @ Greenbrae Surgery Center

06/23/16 – Post-op Appointment w/ Dr Chen @ Greenbrae Surgery Center

07/07/16 3rd electrolysis session on penis (30 min @ $50)

07/25/16  1st laser tattoo removal session ($200)

08/04/16 4th electrolysis session on penis (20 min @ $45)

08/06/16Started taking Flagyl which my PCP prescribed for a light urethral discharge I was experiencing that had a foul fishy odor.

08/08/16 – Discharge and odor completely resolved!

08/25/16 – 5th electrolysis session on penis (15 min $30)

09/12/16 – 2nd laser tattoo removal session ($200)

09/15/16 – 6th electrolysis session on penis (10 min $20)

09/22/16 – Labs (Urine culture) for Stage 2 surgery

10/11/16 – Stage 2 Surgery (Semi Rigid Rod & 2 Medium Testicular Implants)

10/18/16 – Dr Safa Appointment @ CPMC (Questions about donor arm hypersensitivity)

10/20/16 – Post-Op appointment w/ Dr Chen @ Greenbrae Surgery Center

10/31/16  3rd laser tattoo removal session ($200)

Stage 2 – Surgical Prep

~((( JUST A REMINDER: While these prep instructions may reflect the instructions of other surgeons and teams, these directions are specific to patients having any form of implant surgery (erectile and/or testicular) with Dr Crane & Dr Chen. )))~

There is some body preparation needed for stage two RFF (Erectile & Testicular Implants) however it’s very different from the body prep that is needed prior to stage one. There is no need for a bowel prep this time around!!! Hooray!!! However there are two things that were not required for stage one that are required in preparation for implants.

Prophylactic Antibiotics – Two mornings before your surgery you start an antibiotic called Bactrim. It’s a twice daily 10-day course. My surgery is on the 11th, so I start the antibiotics on the 9th which allows 2 full days doses and then one pill the morning before surgery.

Hibiclens Soap or Chlorhexidine Gluconate Wipes – This is an antimicrobial soap or wet wipe that can drastically reduce your chances of acquiring a surgical infection. You’ve got a couple options depending on which you’d prefer to use. Keep reading for additional info that might help you decide between these options.

What is Chlorhexidine Gluconate? Chlorhexidine Gluconate (CHG) is an antiseptic that helps reduce bacteria that can cause infection MRSA. Sage’s 2% CHG cloths contain FDA-approved formula that stays on your skin where it’s needed most. Ordinary bottled CHG soaps require rinsing in the shower. With Sage 2% CHG Cloths, none of the bacteria-fighting ingredient goes down the drain.

Further reading comparing the two if you’re a nerd like me —>  GEEK OUT

You can find SAGE Cloth wipes HERE

The Hibiclens soap you can find at any drug store, large grocery store, or Amazon.

EXTRA SKIN PREP & CLEANSING INSTRUCTIONS FOR THE TRULY OBSESSIVE (this is a 5-day prep pre-op and was not required by my surgeon but is by some other teams and for some other procedures) I don’t know that I’d use the CHG for 5 days prior, but the instructions to use a thin layer of Mupirocin (Bactroban) just inside the nose is a really good preventative, even if only applied the night before and morning of surgery – as staph likes to live inside the nose.

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The following are other items/supplements I chose to add into my recovery regime.

Homeopathic Remedies: I used these remedies for stage one as well and figured it couldn’t hurt to add them in for stage two. The suggested dosage is 5 pellets, 3x per day for each of the remedies. NOTE: 1.) Don’t touch them with your fingers (it affects the potency) tip the bottle upside down and twist the cap… 2.) Let them dissolve under your tongue, chewing/swallowing exposes them to stomach acid which affects potency… 3.) Take them one at a time, don’t dump all 3 different remedies under your tongue at once, again this can, you guessed it, affect potency.

Arnica Montana(30c): Helps with bruising, swelling, and pain

Staphysagria(30c): Helps with the healing of surgical wounds

Graphites or Thiosinaminum(30c): Helps reduce scar tissue.


Ice Packs (Thera Pearl): I bought two of these rectangular ice packs in preparation for surgery because I’m anticipating lots of swelling, especially in the scrotal region. I found them on Amazon as “add-on” items. They also come in a round option as well, which I imagine would probably be great for balls!


Mesh Underwear: Always a good call for a few days when things might still be oozing and bloody. You can also ask the nurses in the recovery room after surgery if they’d be kind enough to send you home with a few pairs, they’ll usually oblige.



X-Top for Men: These are incontinence sheaths designed specifically for men. You can visit their website and request a sample of each of the three absorbencies to be sent to you absolutely free! The reason I thought to get these was because post erectile implant, while you’re still healing it’s advised that you not milk and shake the penis after peeing, or at least do so with extreme caution as this aggressive movement could cause the mounting point at the pelvis to break away. I figured this might be a good option to use that would protect my clothes and absorb odor. They are pretty pricey though,  so I only got the 3 free samples. Toilet paper will do just fine after I use up these freebies.


Edibles (Pain Management): I’ve historically had a REALLY difficult time stomaching any type of narcotic,deb483f7-5131-4b50-a3ca-dcb33f8a702f even with the use of antiemetics. For this reason, in addition to wanting to try something more natural, and because I heard more than a few guys suggest it, I decided to try edibles. If you’re not familiar, think weed brownies. The location where I’m staying in California is about a 4-hour drive from Oregon where they have legal recreational use of cannabis. So I took a drive up there to pick some up. The hope is to be able to strictly use edible THC and CBD to manage pain post-op and completely avoid nausea.


COLUMBIA ANTISEPTIC POWDER: I had SUCH good luck with this miracle powder completely healing a hard to heal wound in the past. I decided to have a minor revision on my perineum again and I wanted this close by to use prophylactically. If you are combining your implants and/or erectile device with any kind of perineal revision or procedure, I really can’t recommend this powder enough. Some wound beds need moisture to heal but the perineum is different, it needs to be kept dry.


FLEXIBLE TAPE MEASURE: Also, really unrelated to recovery, though it could be used to track swelling. I brought a tape measure to see just how much girth the gortex and erectile rod will truly end up giving me.


Stage 2 Pre-Op w/ Dr Chen

On October 6th, I had my pre-op appointment with Dr Chen. I thought I would do a rundown on some of the questions that we discussed at my appointment. It’s been a little over two weeks since I met with him about these topics and I didn’t write down too much in the way of notes afterwards, so I’m just doing my best to recall what I can and going off of the list of questions that I had prepared before meeting with him. Here they are:

Me: “Is the semi-rigid rod MRI safe?”

Dr Chen: “Yes, it won’t cause any problems.”

Me: “Will I set off metal detectors?”

Dr Chen: “No”

Me: “Are you familiar with the “no-touch technique”?

(SIDE NOTE: If you’re curious about what this technique is you can check out this link “No-Touch Technique“, in short it’s a draping method used to prevent direct contact with skin (which harbors bacteria) thus reducing the risk of infection during implant surgery).”

Dr Chen: “Yes. What we do is similar and in some ways and actually takes more extensive steps for cleansing the body. The body is cleansed multiple times, even inside the urethra since it’s skin, the body is draped multiple times, we changes gloves and gowns at different points during the surgery. Once we make the incision and create the area for the erectile device a solution is poured into the space and allowed to sit in order to cleanse the area while we change gloves and gowns and prepare the erectile device to be inserted.

(SIDE  NOTE: I wish I had taken notes on exactly what he said in regards to this explanation because it was the most detailed explanation of anything that he’s given me to date. He literally told me step-by-step exactly what they do from the time I was put to sleep up until the last suture is placed and they are finished with surgery. It was at least a 4-minute detailed explanation and really made me feel confident that extensive efforts are taken to prevent the risk of infection – which is a much higher risk with this surgery than any of the others).”

Me: “Do you prescribe antibiotics prophylactically for implant surgeries?”

Dr Chen: “Yes, we prescribe Bactrim which is started 3 days before surgery (technically 2 days, but you take your 3rd day’s dose the morning of surgery). It’s a 10-day course taken twice daily.”

Me: “Do you have any photos or a piece of the Gortex sheath laying around in the office that you use to wrap the semi-rigid in?”

Dr Chen: “Yes, I have some in the other room, one second:”

SIDE NOTE: Unfortunately, I accidentally deleted this photo from my phone, sorry guys. So I’ll have to describe it to you. As soon as I saw this material it reminded me of a Chinese finger trap for some reason, probably because of its tubular nature with an opening at both ends. It was dry and a bit stiff. But inside the body it would be moist and more flexible. It had the texture of a thick woven mesh and was an off-white color as I remember. The semi rigid rod is placed inside the sheath then the ends of the  Gortex material are folded tightly over both ends of the rod and then sutured down securely. It’s my understanding that the sheath is what makes it possible to suture this whole device to the pubic bone, otherwise they would need to puncture the actual device and thread the metal sutures through it which I imagine would eventually cause weakness and breakdown within the device. You have to remember that these rods were designed to be inserted and encapsulated with the corporal cavernosa structures which natal penises have two of. Since neo phalluses don’t have those erectile bodies, suturing this device to the pubic bone is the current work-around for this incompatibility.”

Me: “I’ve heard many guys report that in order to reduce the risk of erosion that very conservative measures are taken, whereas the tip of the erectile device is placed about an inch back from the tip of the penis. I understand that this drastically reduces the risk of erosion but that in addition it causes the head of the penis to kind of droop over the end of the erectile device. This drooping reduces the amount of usable length for penetration (even if only by a little) as well as making it a bit more difficult during insertion since the head of the penis is so squishy. How far back will you be placing the rod?”

Dr Chen: “We should be able to get it quite close to the very tip of the phallus, usually within about 1 cm. Safety is always the top priority though. ”

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Those were the main questions that seemed relevant to share with you guys. Next post will be an update from the actual surgery itself.

Medical Supplies Packing List


This is a list of the medical-related supplies that I brought with me for surgery. However, some surgeons and the hospitals where they perform surgery will provide a fair amount of these supplies for you, while others require that you bring the majority of your own medical supplies. So be sure to confirm which items you will actually need.

I will not be going over nutritional supplements in this posting because I did a very thorough write up on any orally taken pills, and supplements in a separate blog entitled: Medications, Supplements, & Nutrition Post-Op  <— which can be found here.

BUT, If you would like a downloadable or printable and much more succinct version of THIS checklist (which ALSO includes items from all my other packing and preparation lists i.e. Medications, Nutritional Supplements, and Convenience and Comfort Items, look no further: Printable: Phalloplasty Preparation & Packing  <—behold, the fruits of my labor :o)


Bowel/Body Prep Supplies

These are specific to Crane and Chen patients but there is likely quite a bit of overlap with other surgeons. Please refer to the preoperative instructions that your surgeon has provided you.

  • Magnesium Citrate – 10 fluid ounces (any flavor) This is a saline oral laxative and can be mixed with another clear liquid drink such as gatorade, if you prefer. I just chugged it.


  • Twin Pack of Fleet Enemas – These are ALSO saline laxatives, but they go in the other end. One for the night before surgery and one for the morning of. The kit does come with very specific directions for use, so I won’t get into that here.


  • Stool Softener – Colace, Ducolax, or any generic brand is fine. I bought a bottle of 60 softgels and I still have a ton left, you might be fine with just a bottle of 30. The daily suggested amount on the bottle I have is 1 – 3 soft gels taken all together or split up. If you anticipate needing to be on pain killers for longer than the first week or two, which isn’t uncommon, you may want to spring for a bottle of 60. Constipation is the LAST thing you need when trying to let your perineum heal. You don’t want to be straining. Be sure you start taking stool softeners immediately after surgery as soon as you are allowed to eat. Seriously, this is important. If the nurses don’t give it to you make sure you request it. Set an alarm in your phone to remind you if you don’t have a caretaker to make sure this happens. The combination of anesthesia and narcotics are a perfect storm for severely backed up bowels. Some guys don’t go for well over a week and it can be miserable. I was going by day 4, the night before I left the hospital because I was all over this! I found out the hard way after my hysto and was determined not to have a repeat for phallo.
  • Hibiclens: This product is an antimicrobial skin cleanser primarily made up of chlorhexidine gluconate. This agent binds to the skin for 5-6 hours and as a result inhibits bacterial growth. I automatically shower with this the night before and morning of ANY surgical procedure. It was allowed but not required by my surgeon for Stage One (I had to inquire about it). It is however required for Stage Two when implants are being placed, which comes with a much higher risk for infection.



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General Medical Supplies

  • Medihoney – There are three different main options to choose from here. Patches, Paste, and Gel. You might not really ever need any medihoney. Since it’s fairly pricey for a small amount, I wouldn’t really suggest buying it if you don’t need it. As a side note: I’ve see knock off brands for far cheaper at CVS. I’ll include the 3 that I was familiar with from Amazon which are the brand name. The patches are a calcium alginate dressing that is soaked in medihoney, that one is supposedly for moderately to heavily exuding (oozing, weeping, wet) wounds. The gel and the paste are applied singularly and you can add a dressing over them if you wish to. Keep in mind, that base of this salve is honey – so it’s very sticky stuff:


  • Bacitracin or other topical ointment that your doctor prefers. Some surgeons like Schechter use a TON of these tubes for aftercare. I went through more than 1 tube, but less than 2. This is the brand I bought:


  • TAPE: A variety of types might be helpful to have. Cloth, paper, and waterproof are the three basics that I found useful. One roll of each is likely to be more than enough. I probably used the most of the paper tape during my donor site bandage changes:


  • Medical Safety Scissors: Any scissors will do, they don’t need to be safety scissors. Of course though, these are much safer to use and greatly reduce the risk that you might stab or cut something you REALLY don’t want to be stabbing or cutting and likely may not feel even if you were injuring yourself:



  • Handheld Mirror: It doesn’t need to have a handle. I bought one locally for very cheap that was a rectangle and had a little stand on the back. Anything will do, just as long as you’re able to hold it with one hand. This is an essential to be able to scope out hard-to-view surgical sites:


  • Flexible Ruler: I suggest getting a small retractable, FLEXIBLE (plastic or fabric) ruler. They are really cheap and the flexible ones allow you to measure length (obviously), but also easily wrap it around things which you can’t do accurately or at all with the thin metal ones. These are often marketed for sewing projects. I also got a TON of use out of mine in the lead up to surgery when I was still contemplating going with ALT. Most people are familiar and able to visualize length, but can rarely estimate the girth of something. But have faith, once you measure the girth of every single semi-phallic object in your house with this thing, you will have joined those who can! I also just liked to know how my body was fluctuating during the healing process and being able to know for sure when swelling was going down or increasing:



  • Gloves: These are helpful for dressing changes, especially if you have someone else helping you with them. I honestly used very few of these, but it wasn’t a bad idea to have them on hand. I bought this brand, but again, any will do:



  • Ace Bandage: I actually didn’t even need this. I eventually made use of it months down the line just for fun as a wrap over my silicone gel sheet, but really the tubigrip that I got at O.T. was a far more efficient, lightweight, and FREE option. If you are having ALT you might be more likely to use this and it’d probably make sense to go with the wider wrap, such as the 6 inch:


  • Self Adherent Wrap: I did use this stuff! It was really handy. There are two main brands: Coban, and also Vetrap. The latter is technically marketed for veterinarian used, but I actually liked that brand best because I was able to order in a wider size (I like the 4 inch) and they also come in a slew of really great colors. As a secondary use, this can also be used as an erection aid once you’re all healed up and cleared for sexual activity. A thin, firmly applied layer with a condom rolled on over the top works well, regardless of whether you’ve had glansplasty:


  • Cetaphil: or other gentle skin cleanser equivalent. If you order Cetaphil online, be very careful to make sure you are actually ordering the CLEANSER (soap) if that’s what you are indeed looking to order. I mention this because some of their lotion bottles are the EXACT same with the exception of the words “cleanser” or “cream”:



  • Extra Dry Skin Lotion: Buy something that has a lot of body to it. Some lotions are really watered down. You want something that’s going to really penetrate the dry scales on your “split thickness”, and “flap” harvest locations once you are cleared to start moisturizing. I went with a very thick, rich version of Eucerin. Yes, it was super greasy, but it got the job done and I didn’t constantly have to reapply. A few other good options would be Lubriderm, shea butter, or coconut oil lotion. Get whatever works for you. Either way, just know you’ll be using a lot of it and for many months, so find something you won’t dread putting on. The more regularly you use it and massage the area the more likely you are to heal faster and reduce your scarring:


  • Disposable Wipes: I bought a brand called Adult Wipes (rather than the smaller tiny baby wipes) and I was really satisfied with the purchase. The adult wipes are 12 x 8, they are noticeably larger than a baby wipe and far thicker. I bought a huge case of 240 that had 5 easy one-handed press open packages which then container 48 wipes each. Cases are currently being sold on Amazon for just over $10:

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  • Antibacterial Hand Wipes: These are very different from just a standard baby or adult wipe which is only going to use moisture to cleanse the area. Having antibacterial hand wipes is really helpful when it’s difficult to get up and frequently wash your hands with real soap and water. The bottled hand sanitizer is also an option too, but I preferred to use the wipes which felt like a cleaner option. These are also great for wiping down and cleaning things like your scissors, mirror, remote control, phone etc. Anything that you’re touching all the time that gets funky fast:


  • Thermometer: This tends to be an overlooked item, but an important one. You’re going to want to know if you’re running a fever because that could indicate the presence of an infection. Definitely add this to your suitcase:


  • Medical Inflatable Donut: These are available in a few different sizes, usually 15″ and 18″. I’m 5’5 and about 140 lbs. The one I went with was 15″ and it felt like a good fit for me, but I think the 18″ wouldn’t have been too large either. Some guys don’t end up using a donut and prefer instead to use a pillow, but I really liked the donut for whenever I had to leave the house. It made sitting in the car during hours of traffic and long post-op appointment waits much more comfortable. I used it for my STAGE ONE, my perineal revision in June, and I also plan on using it after my implant surgery too, so I’ve definitely gotten plenty of use out of it:


  • Mesh Disposable Underwear: I really liked these! The nice thing is that they’re sturdy enough to hand wash a few times and get some multiple uses out of. I didn’t start wearing regular underwear for quite some time because of areas that were still draining so these came in handy and were really easy to tuck gauze or pads into to either prop and elevate or absorb. My friend got creative with these and made a snip in the front with scissors and used the elasticity of the underwear to keep his penis elevated but not at such a sharp vertical angle! The brand that I like is called Medichoice and I bought the SM/MD size. Again, I’m 5’5 and about 140 lbs:


  • Chux Underpads: For sitting on/sleeping on and protecting furniture and bedding. You might also be able to pick up puppy pads that are actually thicker and cheaper at a nearby pet store:


  • Kerlix Gauze Rolls: I bought a 10 pack of these and I ended up needing about twice that much. These are pretty big and bulky so you might want to pick them up locally if you’re traveling for surgery. Be careful when ordering online. The size you’re looking for is: 4 1/2″ x 4 1/8 yd. I really didn’t know what these were for prior to having surgery. They’re for lightly wrapping the donor site after you’ve applied the Xeroform material to the wound site:


  • Combine Pads: Also called ABD pads. 5 x 9 is the size you’re looking for. These can be used for propping your penis up in an elevated position in underwear, and they’re also really heavy duty absorbent pads. Essentially they are a very crude version of a sanitary napkin but not contoured and they don’t have any wings or adhesive on them. I had a couple times where I had bleeds and the combine pads were a lifesaver. My friend that had surgery 2 days after me hardly used any of his. Some of these supplies you might never use, so you could go bare bones if you want and skip these, but I think having some kind of pads available to you is pretty essential:

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  • Xeroform: Ok, I didn’t really know what this weird stuff was before surgery. I had seen it in some videos of people showing bandage changes but I didn’t really know what it was. It’s just a thin yellow piece of cloth that is impregnated with a bacitracin equivalent, that’s it. I bought a box of 50 and had enough to share with a friend. Depending on how large your donor site is, you will need at least one, but possibly 2 or 1 and some change, per dressing change. Dressing changes are done every 1-2 days usually but I’ve heard some guys being told to do them twice a day. Climate could be a factor here, arid locations would cause the ointment to dry out quicker. Ultimately you’ll want to check in with your surgeon about frequency. I used the Xeroform everyday for 3-4 weeks:


  • StatLock: Ok, seriously. I wish I had prepared and bought 2 or 3 of these prior to surgery. These are a catheter tube holding device that uses an INSANELY strong glue to adhere to your skin. This is a PRO MOVE guys. You can use tape but I found that utterly frustrating, with constantly re-tapping, and my body and the SP tubing getting completely covered in tape goo. Also the super pubic tubing would roll and twist and kink with the tape. I had one of these Statlocks in the hospital but they didn’t have any to send me home with. CPMC only purchases them as part of an entire catheterization KIT. I got the one place when I was in the OR and then ordered some online but they took close to a week to arrive. They can be a little pricey for just being a sticker ($6) but it’s a solid buy you won’t regret. 2 or 3 will be plenty, you can get almost a full week out of them. DO NOT rip them off, you have to soak it in alcohol or it will tear your damn skin off. Follow the instruction that come with it, the application site needs to be prepped with the packets that come with it and you may want to shave the location or choose a less hairy spot to stick it… Amazon keywords to use if you want the one below which was identical to the one I had in the hospital and purchased online: “STATLOCK Foley Stabilization Device with Foam Anchor Pad with Perspiration Holes”:



  • Alcohol Prep Pads: These are great for getting things to the next level of sanitation that baby wipes, and antibacterial wipes can’t do and aren’t appropriate for. You’ll also NEED them to change/remove your Statlock. Also great for getting all the tape goo off your body from the hospital and dressing changes, or if you end up deciding to ignore my very good advice of using a statlock and instead tape your SP to your body. You’ll be using tons of these to get tape glue of things. Super useful:


  • Pill Baggies: Ok, I got these kind of last minute, the day before my surgery. I had mulled over the idea of using a big plastic pill organizer but most of them were not large enough to hold all the days pills, nor would they fit a packet of Juven, and I didn’t want to dump homeopathic remedies in with the other pills because anything touching them (including the oils from your hands) negatively impact their potency. So, here’s what I did to organize my meds. I essentially had 3 pill times throughout the day and I made a MORNING, NOON, & EVENING pill baggie for each med time. I wrote the intended date on every bag so there could be no confusion for example as to “whether or not I took today’s noon dosage or not”. Anything that I needed to take that was not in the baggie, I wrote directly on the bag, there’s space. I then went a step further and I took the 3 mini dosage bags and I put them inside one daily ziplock sandwich bag and wrote the day/date on it. So I was able to fit the Juven, any other powdered supplements and drop the tubes of homeopathic remedies into the daily bag and keep everything right by the couch, bed, or bring it along with me in the car. This made keeping up with my medications much easier. The first batch I packaged up the night before surgery and I set myself up for close to 2 weeks. By the time I ran out I was feeling up to being able to make another round spanning 2 weeks. Once I ran out of those I was already home and taking far fewer pills/supplements. This was the method that worked best for me. I also used this system with a friend I was supporting after his surgery and he seemed to find it really useful too. There are just FAR too many bottles to be going around opening them all up at each medication time. Even as a once daily task I was SO glad to take it off the list of things I needed to worry about. These are very similar to the bags I used. I found them at my local pharmacy in a pack of 50:
  • Bendy Straws: Ok, this isn’t a medical item but it might as well be. These are great to have while you are lying in bed in the hospital and aren’t allowed to sit up in the beginning. Usually the hospital has some, so just grab a handful from them. You can also snag a few at a fast food joint. Or I suppose just buy a small box – they’re dirt cheap for more than you’ll use in 5 years. But definitely have some on hand, it made staying hydrated much easier and enjoyable:

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